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我在你看不见的地方

想你

我在你听不见的广场

说爱你

我在你到不了的地方

哭泣

我在你不理我的时候

求你

我在你忘了我的时候

等你

能不能在你消失之前

就让我再一次看清楚

那一张我早就该遗忘

却又不愿删除的脸庞

就是爱你 所以我忘记

想事泄了气的气球

我无力了

没办法在撑下去了

怎么老是在依靠呢？

是不是该试着独立？

我真的很累

几乎喘不过气来了

老是在梦中惊醒

才猛然发现

是自己的精神过于紧张了

处于紧绷状态时

完全得不到放松

好可怕

好可怕

从事情发生到现在

我们从未正式过我们之间的问题

我们由始至终都在逃避

逃避彼此的视线

我们似乎没办法再回到从前的我们

为什么我还要问

又是一个

连我自己都觉得可怕的举动

有人说

你恨敢爱敢恨

是赞美吗？

有人说

你就是爱打破沙锅问到底

结果还不是伤害了自己？

那又何必呢？

是自己想要知道真相

那又何必怨天尤人了？

我不怨天

更不尤人

我会让自己好过一点

会让自己努力忘记曾经

点点滴滴

回忆再美好

也不过是过去

那何必强求呢？

Realize…

I choose to come here…

whenever I am depress, down, or moody…

When people having Monday Blue…

I am having Night Time BLue…

This sounds ridiculous,

Yet it happened…

Whatever happened around me…

the EFFECTS wont stay long with me…

One thing that will STICK forever with me is the BLUISH…

Is like the moods comes and goes…

But bluish don’t

Am I keep repeating the same thing…?

I am kinda blur now…

When can I set myself free?

Do whatever I like… I just want to set myself FREE…

Free from everything….

Commitment…

Relationship…

Burden…!

so tired…

middle of the night…

0248… What am I doing here?

Waiting for what?

I am suppose to go and get some sleep as is going to be busy soon…

My schedule for this semester is rather pack…

I am getting old again soon…

1 more month…

no

is half more month to CNY…what am I suppose to do with all this…

Goodness…

Is getting much trouble…

just can’t finish deal with it…

I am kinda exhausted…

really OMG

Dead & Gone

Regarding the CLHS case….

My bro told me,

One of the student been acting differently few days before the incident

He didn’t take his own dinner to the computer table and eat at his own anymore…

He sat down and had dinner together with the parents,

During chinese lesson, when he is writing an essay…

The content somehow like he is leaving his last word…

He said the darkness take away my life…

Does it mean that he know he can’t escape?

Does it mean that he know the end of his life?

Or he already seen the god of death…?

Last night when I am about to go into the bus…

I somehow feel uncomfortable…

Is it the side effect of hearing all these story?

I somehow feel something bad going to happen…

I was worried…

I was scared…

Maybe is the tiredness…

Make me feel so…

Luckily everything goes smooth…

I reach home safely…

Waiting to go to my 1st class for Y3S3…

Pray for everything would be fine…

May the 6 of you Rest in Peace…

你相信吗？

你相信吗？

我像是有了免疫能力

我的伤心可以很快复原

我的眼泪可以很快停止

我的伤口可以很快止血

我的心很快又封闭了

我说我快乐

你相信吗？

我的烦恼可以暂时忘记

我学会了

“没办法解决”

就看着办吧

我曾经把爱情看得很重

甚至是我的全部

除了爱情

其他的问题对我来说

根本不是什么大问题

我放下了

我上了一课

我看清了人的本性

我懂了

我分清了朋友的类别

我知道了朋友的意义

我说我懂了

你相信吗？

Additional…

Regarding the previous post…
I wasn’t talking about particular one,
but all of them…
for whoever did the thing to me…
I am still out of control now…
Out of choice…
Out of mind…
Lost…!

When is the last?

When is the last post…?

I forgotten…

When is the last tie we met?

I forgotten…

When is the last time we really talk to each other…?

I forgotten…

When is the last time we watch movie?

I forgotten…

When is the last time you left me when I need you?

I forgotten…

When is the last time I cry on your shoulder?

I forgotten…

When is the last time you saw my tears and walk away?

I forgotten…

When is the last time you help me in whatever trouble I have…?

I forgotten…

None of the memories will repeat in my life…

I cried and left…

Although we finally meet each other after 2 semester…

I found myself silly…

Really silly…

The conversation seems strange…

So Strange…

What am I doing?

Am I still waiting?

Is it worth it?

Does things really meant to be like this?

Realised…

I just found out that

I was so matured last time,

What I thought last time, when I was in secondary schools…

It never comes to my mind anymore

As I grow older, I get to be more childish and stubborn…

No matter how much knowledge I learned,

I am still…

Being like this…

Getting confuse…

But I have to be clear with myself…

MOVE ON!!!

When so many things come to my mind…

I am so…

Messed up around…?!